I'm so angry at myself
For disappointing you time and time again
I don't deserve someone as good as you
You deserve someone so much better

Maybe this is why we shouldn't get into a relationship in JC, it so hard to put studies as my priority....... And when I do, it doesn't end well.

I wanted to talk things out
And explain to you but I know I'll end up crying
I'm not as strong as you think I am
I can't say a word without tearing up

And why am I tearing up as I'm typing this on the bus.
Why am I feeling as shitty as how I felt one year ago?????

I'm not angry at you
I'm angry at myself for messing up, for disappointing you, for spoiling your plans all the time.

But please don't give up on me.
Even though I gave you all the reasons to.

I don't know what to do.
Who can I talk to?
Who will be able to understand where I'm coming from?

I need someone

Maybe this was a bad idea afterall.... I'm sorry. It must be hard being my boyfriend..