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what im feeling right now is horrendous... I haven't felt so stressed up for such a long time :'( I'm on the verge of just crying and shutting myself from the world but I know it's not to anyone's good, definitely not mine.

I really want to get into ODAC. The desire to get in is so strong but then again I still have SC on the other hand. I have to make a choice and the choice that my heart chooses is extremely risky. ODAC. Giving up my chance on SC and just go for ODAC.. The chances of getting into a good position of SC is definitely high but my heart choose and desires odac. I'm so afraid that I'll be a burden for my SC group if I leave, it'll be so irresponsible but like what Janice said, it'd give them a higher chance right? I shouldn't be so selfish to stay on and ruin others' chances..? I'm already feeling so stressed out but today's briefing, what more do I have to expect from sc?

But what are the chances of me getting into ODAC? I'm so afraid I won't be able to get in and I really don't know what I'll do at that point of time... I'll be CCA-less, The feeling of despair is killing me slowly and it's clearly affecting me so so so much.

I really hope I'll be able to make a sound choice, one that I won't regret in a few months time. This is troubling me way too much.......... :'( I came to a point whereby I know that if I don't make a decision right away, it'll continue to haunt and torture me.