what now

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying
Tears were for the weaker days, I'm stronger now
Or so I say, but something's missing

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me
Through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now, I just can't figure it out
What now, I guess
I'll just wait it out, wait it out